I've been having a rough week. I'm starting to come out of zombie mode and auto-pilot. The feels are starting to come and it hasn't been pretty. I realized this week that when we were going through everything before I made myself feel better by having something to look forward to and something to plan. I contemplated a few things but the best I could come up with is the fact that I hate the feeling of my life spinning out of control, and I need something that I have control over. Something I can be proactive about. But I don't want to make any drastic decisions. The first and easiest thing to come to was my weight.
7 years ago I dropped a TON of weight through reducing calories and increasing exercise. 5 years ago I got injured and I've been trying to get my routine back ever since. During that time when I was getting fit, my running was the only escape I had from a very unhealthy situation. It was my only time to think. I needed my exercise for my sanity, and I need that side of me back. My weight has crept up higher than it was before that point. So here's my goal, and my plan.
I'm going to start being more mindful of what I'm eating. The initial goal is to give Weight Watchers the old college try, though I've struggled a lot with hunger in the past when I've done that. So we'll see how it goes. More whole food, less processed, much less dessert and snacking. I also need to get back into an exercise routine, even if that means starting with walking.
And now for goals. I would like to lose 20 pounds by my daughter's birthday, in 4 months. That's approximately a pound a week which is entirely doable if I stick to my plan. Longer term, I'm looking to be competitive again come the September MVP Half.
This is for nobody but me, because I don't feel good about myself and my clothes are too tight. I know I'm unhealthy again and I don't like it. I may never see 122 and size 4 again and I'm okay with that. But I'm not okay with how out of shape I feel.
7 years ago I dropped a TON of weight through reducing calories and increasing exercise. 5 years ago I got injured and I've been trying to get my routine back ever since. During that time when I was getting fit, my running was the only escape I had from a very unhealthy situation. It was my only time to think. I needed my exercise for my sanity, and I need that side of me back. My weight has crept up higher than it was before that point. So here's my goal, and my plan.
I'm going to start being more mindful of what I'm eating. The initial goal is to give Weight Watchers the old college try, though I've struggled a lot with hunger in the past when I've done that. So we'll see how it goes. More whole food, less processed, much less dessert and snacking. I also need to get back into an exercise routine, even if that means starting with walking.
And now for goals. I would like to lose 20 pounds by my daughter's birthday, in 4 months. That's approximately a pound a week which is entirely doable if I stick to my plan. Longer term, I'm looking to be competitive again come the September MVP Half.
This is for nobody but me, because I don't feel good about myself and my clothes are too tight. I know I'm unhealthy again and I don't like it. I may never see 122 and size 4 again and I'm okay with that. But I'm not okay with how out of shape I feel.
Comments
Post a Comment