The Beginning becomes the most important part and is necessary!!! It must be learned and respected and loved!!!
So...It has now been almost 5 and a half weeks since our major upturn in our lives. The first day that we had even begun to "think" of our ordeal was the Thursday before Good Friday, this year. As i am sure most of you know, I did not have the greatest of Easter Weekends. In fact, I almost forgot what I had going on those days. But I wish I had. I wish I had the presence and the mindset to have our Lord be in our prayer.
He has done it all for me. He has brought our team together. When I first wrote my blog, I left out a bunch of parts. I will now include them.
When I first arrived at the URMC/Strong, I was unaware of anything. I new nothing of Cancer. I knew nothing about what a cancerous tumor would bring in to mind. As I stated before, how could i look at the results of the past 9 months and look at my beautiful and loving wife and not know that I would be wrecking her whole world???I had to keep it together, and I knew it would kill me. I knew it would be killing her. I thought. How could this be happening? How could a simple migraine headache be doing this to me. But it wasn't a simple migraine? It wasn't an easy fix. It was the most severe tumor I had ever known or seen. In a sense, though, It was interesting to see what the scan was. It was interesting to see what my brain had become. It was interesting to see how the right side of the brain had overtaken to the left side... It was amazing to be looking at my CAT scan and watch as the doctor then said, OK, so this is where things get tricky. We have a situation where we are going to need a neurosurgeon to come and explain to you whats happening. This is where my focus went directly towards Katie. How could I look at her and try to know that her life and what she needed could have left her. She is the most important thing in my life. And I could have destroyed her. So i needed to stay strong. Then as I was sitting there, I called my mother and told her that I was at Strong (URMC) and was at the CAT scan. My mother was devastated and immediately called my sister who in her own right, and she will take no credit for her actions. She did it all, she called Dr Maurer and had him look over my scan... oh yeah...back to the scan, so when I looked at it, it appeared that the tumor had "reached" across the middle line of the brain and was pushing itself into the other side "or the speech" area. It would have been so interesting to see. Now, when Dr Maurer called his team of Dr Kimmel and his other radiation and oncology team. Mary Lang and Christian.
When the surgery (2nd) was completed. I was in complete awe. I had received my life back. I was able to let the surgeon know that my wife had taken me down Long Pond Road. Past the mall and into Unity Hospital, where I was able to check in. He had warned me that I would not be able to focus for the next two weeks or so, and that would be normal. He did not tell me that I would be able to explain to him exactly what he had done. That he had done a left brain craniatomy and that I was able to pin point exactly that he had open me up and had reached in and taken out the "bad" material. It was awesome. It was amazing and awe inspiring and it brought me closer to Christ!! I know go to church regularly and I don't care whether you are Hindu, Muslim, Christian or Jew. I love the "Coexist" bumper sticker. I have a writing on my arm that says "There can be only one" Now, I know that is from "The Highlander" series, but it also has a lot to do with Spirituality. The fact that there is but one God, Allah. And he loves you!
Now, when I was at Strong, they gave me a choice of Pajama Pants or a gown... I chose the PJs. They were so comfortable and I wore those most of the time. We call them cozies. The trip from Strong to RGH (Unity) was great. When we go there, we were amazed at the ICU. The only thing that hurt me here was that I was awakened every hour for meds and vitals. But all in all a good stay. Then when we were moved to a general room, they gave us an awesome room and for this time we we're only bothered every 4 hours. The room allowed for us to buy time for television this time, but we did not have to pay for parking unlike Strong. When I needed coffee or a mocha, they had some at the cafeteria, which was a lot like our cafeteria at Crossroads.
The next few days were quite boring, although we did have quite a few people come in and stay with me. On Tuesday, the 26th was the first surgery. When I got out of this, I was very confused. My family knew I was "better"but I still had focus issues. When I would think of something I would think of one thing and not be able to focus on the others. Like if you were to take a lock on a canal, or a lock of hair, or a lock on you car, or a lock of hair. I would be able to think of one of those, Not only would I be so confused, but my Speech therapist would need to help me through. Now, after the second procedure, I am now able to focus on each of those things. I am able to know that my path now is clear. That I am going to be able to DESTROY this cancer that has started to grow in me.
This week I went for my radiation hat and my chemo drug. My path here is with Dr Bushinell, Dr Atanes, and Dr Chawle. These again are people that are in touch with Dr. Maurer. In fact, when Dr Chawle suggested to me that I go in for a 2nd surgery, Dr Maurer called mt wife and told her, yes WE NEEDED TO!
My treatments for Timedar and chemo begin in 2 weeks from yesterday! So here we go! Dr Maurer and Dr Kimmel will be giving me the best me the best chance at destroying this cancer and we will have know more!
#teamstearns #jessestrong
I will be able to kill this malignancy that was about to destroy my life, my family and of course my wife! She is the strongest person that i have ever met and will be my life for the rest of it that we have.
This past Friday, they gave me freedom to walk to and from my home to McDonald's, BK, Chinese... well looks like just a bit of food stuffs... oh yeah Dollar Store, Guitar Store.. etc. but, so nice.
I love you :)
"Hello Sweetie" :)
He has done it all for me. He has brought our team together. When I first wrote my blog, I left out a bunch of parts. I will now include them.
When I first arrived at the URMC/Strong, I was unaware of anything. I new nothing of Cancer. I knew nothing about what a cancerous tumor would bring in to mind. As I stated before, how could i look at the results of the past 9 months and look at my beautiful and loving wife and not know that I would be wrecking her whole world???I had to keep it together, and I knew it would kill me. I knew it would be killing her. I thought. How could this be happening? How could a simple migraine headache be doing this to me. But it wasn't a simple migraine? It wasn't an easy fix. It was the most severe tumor I had ever known or seen. In a sense, though, It was interesting to see what the scan was. It was interesting to see what my brain had become. It was interesting to see how the right side of the brain had overtaken to the left side... It was amazing to be looking at my CAT scan and watch as the doctor then said, OK, so this is where things get tricky. We have a situation where we are going to need a neurosurgeon to come and explain to you whats happening. This is where my focus went directly towards Katie. How could I look at her and try to know that her life and what she needed could have left her. She is the most important thing in my life. And I could have destroyed her. So i needed to stay strong. Then as I was sitting there, I called my mother and told her that I was at Strong (URMC) and was at the CAT scan. My mother was devastated and immediately called my sister who in her own right, and she will take no credit for her actions. She did it all, she called Dr Maurer and had him look over my scan... oh yeah...back to the scan, so when I looked at it, it appeared that the tumor had "reached" across the middle line of the brain and was pushing itself into the other side "or the speech" area. It would have been so interesting to see. Now, when Dr Maurer called his team of Dr Kimmel and his other radiation and oncology team. Mary Lang and Christian.
When the surgery (2nd) was completed. I was in complete awe. I had received my life back. I was able to let the surgeon know that my wife had taken me down Long Pond Road. Past the mall and into Unity Hospital, where I was able to check in. He had warned me that I would not be able to focus for the next two weeks or so, and that would be normal. He did not tell me that I would be able to explain to him exactly what he had done. That he had done a left brain craniatomy and that I was able to pin point exactly that he had open me up and had reached in and taken out the "bad" material. It was awesome. It was amazing and awe inspiring and it brought me closer to Christ!! I know go to church regularly and I don't care whether you are Hindu, Muslim, Christian or Jew. I love the "Coexist" bumper sticker. I have a writing on my arm that says "There can be only one" Now, I know that is from "The Highlander" series, but it also has a lot to do with Spirituality. The fact that there is but one God, Allah. And he loves you!
Now, when I was at Strong, they gave me a choice of Pajama Pants or a gown... I chose the PJs. They were so comfortable and I wore those most of the time. We call them cozies. The trip from Strong to RGH (Unity) was great. When we go there, we were amazed at the ICU. The only thing that hurt me here was that I was awakened every hour for meds and vitals. But all in all a good stay. Then when we were moved to a general room, they gave us an awesome room and for this time we we're only bothered every 4 hours. The room allowed for us to buy time for television this time, but we did not have to pay for parking unlike Strong. When I needed coffee or a mocha, they had some at the cafeteria, which was a lot like our cafeteria at Crossroads.
The next few days were quite boring, although we did have quite a few people come in and stay with me. On Tuesday, the 26th was the first surgery. When I got out of this, I was very confused. My family knew I was "better"but I still had focus issues. When I would think of something I would think of one thing and not be able to focus on the others. Like if you were to take a lock on a canal, or a lock of hair, or a lock on you car, or a lock of hair. I would be able to think of one of those, Not only would I be so confused, but my Speech therapist would need to help me through. Now, after the second procedure, I am now able to focus on each of those things. I am able to know that my path now is clear. That I am going to be able to DESTROY this cancer that has started to grow in me.
This week I went for my radiation hat and my chemo drug. My path here is with Dr Bushinell, Dr Atanes, and Dr Chawle. These again are people that are in touch with Dr. Maurer. In fact, when Dr Chawle suggested to me that I go in for a 2nd surgery, Dr Maurer called mt wife and told her, yes WE NEEDED TO!
My treatments for Timedar and chemo begin in 2 weeks from yesterday! So here we go! Dr Maurer and Dr Kimmel will be giving me the best me the best chance at destroying this cancer and we will have know more!
#teamstearns #jessestrong
I will be able to kill this malignancy that was about to destroy my life, my family and of course my wife! She is the strongest person that i have ever met and will be my life for the rest of it that we have.
This past Friday, they gave me freedom to walk to and from my home to McDonald's, BK, Chinese... well looks like just a bit of food stuffs... oh yeah Dollar Store, Guitar Store.. etc. but, so nice.
I love you :)
"Hello Sweetie" :)
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